Plans

Just a quickie...well that would be nice, and of course would be attainable if I wasn't being so picky lately but that's not even what I was talking about. So today at work with my new found view on life I was job searching. I have decided to apply to hotel jobs in Baltimore, NYC, Philly and some random place that has a big city. THEN I will look for jobs in the music industry even though 90% of them are for unpaid interns and I will apply to four of those. Pretty exciting stuff!

As far as the rest of my life I am gonna try my hardest to just let things happen. There are some definite prospects but that could only be from my point of view! I have a date with one of them Monday but as much as I would like to be this 'free spirited' my mind is focusing on just one....well one and an 8 yr old relationship who's fragments of memories pop up every once in a very weak moment(THE EX)But it's not that I miss him. I have moments of 'what might have been' RIGHT....what might have been if we were both different people! Haha. So I'm going through that annoying teenage girl, smitten kitten phase and I hate it! I need to be more patient and see if he asks ME to do something! 31 undone has never been more true....and when i put myself in his shoes it seems pretty obvious that I am into him and I still can't tell if he has even a shred of interest. BTW this is not a self esteem issue, its a he's hard to read issue.

OK SEE-Getting consumed already---BACK TO THE PLANS 4 my new life, new job, new home!!!